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The tragedies never seem to end do they? Here I am 7:26am without sleep telling all of you out there willing to listen how I have been feeling.

I should tell you that once again this story is yet another tragic romance. It seems that is what my life consists of now is tragic romance... or maybe just tragedy.

After the bout I mentioned in a previous entry, I managed to move on. I found such a wonderful girl who happened to light up my life for the past 2 and a half weeks. I thought I found a great girl.... No let me rephrase.... I DID find a great girl, but like most of the few good women in my life she walked out on me. I met her on here (yeah should have learned my lesson right?). She was there for me when I was suffering from my break up. We started talking and getting to know each other and found out she was having problems as well.
She had a boyfriend that didn't act like a boyfriend should, and I was there to help her realize that. We got this sudden feeling... it was hard to explain even for me and I could describe pretty much anything. I felt comfortable and happy talking to her and she felt the same way. We decided to be with each other soon after this. Sadly problems began as soon as this happened.
See the problem wasn't with us, the problem seemed to be else where, and I still can't figure it out... She made 3 attempts to break up with me... I held on tight and fought the good fight...but the third time I couldn't. I don't think I could fully understand why she left the way she did... and even I did I wouldn't say because that is her business.
We managed to make each other so very happy for this short amount of time... I should have known it was to good to be true I mean after all I am used to things like this never going right. You know how kids say they're never gonna grow up? Or better yet, you know how nerds say they are never going to get a chance with the awesome girl next door? Well ladies and gentlemen, I'm the nerd. I've always been.. For so many people to tell me I'm handsome I never seem to make things work out with anyone. Go figure...
I can't help but use Jim Carey's line from Bruce Almighty here, "God is a fat kid on an ant hill with a magnifying glass, and I'm the ant. He'd rather burn off my feelers and watch me squirm!" Well I think being near homelessness, barely any money, job corps kicking me around, not being able to keep a decent relationship is as low as I can get... Who am I kidding of course it isn't

Anyway I might have another good tragedy for you. Its just the next broken heart away