Wow. I'm a total b***h. He is one of the people I care about most in my life and I hurt him. What is wrong with me? Seriously. I love him and he says he'll always love me twice as much as I love him... or so he did. We finally got to talk today after an entire week and then I screw everything up. He would say something that sounded screwed up but I knew what he really meant, yet I'd take it the wrong way anyway. He would tell me what he really meant... and I'd just deny it and say s**t. He finally told me that we needed to seperate; take time away from each other, he said we both had some thinking to do. He said he didn't want to talk to me til Christmas. He made me promise not to say his name til then, and not to cut that entire week. Then we talked a little more and I continued to twist his words and piss him off because I was hurt. And then he told me the one thing I'd never expect to hear him say, "You know I'm starting to get a small dislike for you." I nearly cried when he said that. But when that didn't make me cry, his last words did. Right before he left he said.
"I love you Kirstin... or so I thought."
That part tore my heart in half.
 ll Kirstin ll · Sat Dec 19, 2009 @ 09:35pm · 1 Comments |
