This will be my first journal entry in over a decade! It's hard to believe this site meant so much to me with all the human connections made to all the item collecting.
It is a different time on Gaia and a different time in our world. Inflation is real in both.
Trying times for sure.
I still like to draw more so now with pen and paper instead of the very classic MS paint. I'm hoping to purchase an drawing pad and pen, but that may cost me up to $800 just for the pad. Until then I'll keep doodling and making my crafts.
I'm on instagram showing off my creations. I haven't gone viral just yet but I wasn't really shooting for that.
I think fame is over rated. Living for yourself is a path to happiness for sure.
To be honest, this pandemic has brought me to a new level of stress and panic. I've been having panic attacks for the first time in my life. I don't know how anyone is able to function with the attacks. I tried learning a new breathing technic to slow my heart rate and stop my shaking legs. It feels so much better when I'm back in control of my body. I realized I don't know how to breath correctly! It's defiantly a pain in the a$$, but I'm learning.
There's talk in the nation about "unmasking" while many are still spreading the virus allowing it to mutate. It's unnerving to say the least. I'm afraid the majority of my peers did not pay much attention in school. While I was not the top of my class, I still understand how such viruses evolve with every new host.
Maybe more than half of my own family isn't on the same page with understanding and it's frustrating. Instead of trying or wanting to learn, conversations turns political instead of scientific. I feel like I can't talk to these family members. There's a wedge between us and it hurts me.
I have started seeing a therapist who I really like. She's been great for my day to day problems, but I hope we can get a grip on my anxieties so I can live a proper and happier life.
Maybe I'll be back next week! I hope you are safe, loved, and appreciated.
With much love, nyunyuchii