• As i sit here watching him suffer, I feel the joy of a kid on christmas day. He took the ones I loved, now I take his life. He pleas, he begs, he even cries for me to spare his life. This only fuels the desire within me to kill. I smile at his pain for it makes me even happier. I am lost now. My own desire to kill swallows me whole like an unquenchable fire and yet... I like it. As I press this knife to his throat, I enjoy the way he squirms, actually seeing him afraid and of me in fact. I don't feel human anymore but like an animal who solely lives just to kill. The blood dripping down his throat adds more and more to my uncontrollable desire to kill him. But why should it be quick? Why should I be merciful to him when he had no intentions for the ones I loved? No. It should be a slow and agonizing death. I stick the knife in a fireplace watching the redness of the blade so bright I find myself in a blissful moment. He tried to crawl away but how could he? His arms and legs are all broken. He's trying to crawl away still but in vain. I flip him over and step on his ribcage feeling a couple of his ribs give way under the pressure of my foot. He screams though only a couple of seconds as he cringes in pain. He looks at me with fear in his eyes trying to plead for life. Even though I was always filled with emotion, I had none today. My heart was as cold as ice all of my emotions stripped away from me, except for bliss. Bliss that I was about to kill him. In a slow and painful way, I made ten long gashes about an inch thick all over his arms and then five on each side of his face while watching scream in utter pain. He tried to say something, but his voice was hoarse from all the screaming that all he managed was a pitiful gasp. I put the knife on his throat on his throat one last time before ending his wretched life. Blood spewed everywhere and even on me while his eyes were slowly being glazed by death until at last he was no more. My own demon of hatred and revenge had taken over completely now. I am not the same person I was. Now I was truly lost.