• The tears stung my eyes.

    NO not again please oh god no.

    Everything is black the tears still stinging there way out. No one will help me no one will see. Behind close doors are the scariest things imaginable. I want out i need out. I can't stand it any more i just can't. It's torture pure unadulterated torture. Mom is always to drunk to check on me. Dad is letting work swallow him. He makes me tell him i love him when in fact it's the opposite. Would you hate if you were in my position?

    Who do you love? Huh...I can't here you say out louder, louder scream it. I whimper it out but eventually give in to his painful grasp. It hurts i always tell him. He always says i'll get used to eat. It won't hurt after awhile. All lies but what can i do. He knows me well thats why he choose me and not my little sister. That's why he wanted to lay me in bed. That's why he hurts ME. He knows i won't, can't tell. He's my big brother and no one would believe me anyway.

    Please stop big brother, please just let me alone. I always beg i always plea. Today i would not stop begging.

    Let me alone please.

    No you love me i love you it's ok the pain will go away, baby.

    No it won't please just stop.He gets angry.

    I said no.He yells at me,

    And so did i......................Everything is white now, at least i said no in the end.