• Ortus, Vita, and Mortis is the cycle we all go through. But some have tried to end this cycle. Many tried to prevent Mortis to come. But in the end all are crushed and fallen. It is how the way things are. Nothing we can do to prevent it, nor stop this never ending cursed cycle. Yet we all live through not thinking of what is to come. Nor how that one thing, one mishap can change the world you once knew and lived into your own destruction. This is something that continues to plague my mind. I always ponder and think of when the time will come when Mortis will strike my heart and soul, but I try to suppress the thought. But out of all I know I can never stop it. Lately Ive been meditating for a while trying to get my mind off of things but yet to no great results. My sensei always told me that it helps calm the mind, body, and spirit yet I cannot tell. I once thought of the suggestion of therapy from my friend but I didn't think it was to be needed. Sometimes I feel like im changing..transforming..into some kind of animal but that is just a figure of speech. But lately the feeling of something ominous has been disastrous in my life. I don't know if I can even hope for the better or if I want things to get better. All I know is that something will happen, question is will I be ready?

    Mind shutting and Logging off. End of Chapter 1...