• I opened my eyes I was covered with darkness again. But then I could see myself as if there’s an invisible spotlight above me. I’m in my dream again I told myself. I looked around and saw a hint of light at 6 o’clock position. I run towards the light, as I go nearer, the light becomes brighter and clearer. And I could see the figure of the sad girl. As I run I felt a cool breeze, the breeze you feel when you’re near the shore. Then I could smell the salty scent of the sea, but only darkness surrounds me. As I run I kept wondering why am I feeling this and why could I smell the salty sea. I was getting near the light and the girl. I’m getting closer, closer than before. Until I bumped into the invisible barrier but I was so close to touching her, 18 inches away maybe. She’s just within my reach but this transparent barrier kept me from going near her, it kept me from holding her. I tried everything I could to break this barrier punching, pushing, and even tackling nothing works. The only visible reaction is the silent bumps I made. I tried tackling it again but now I run farther away, and ran towards it, I know I tackled it hard enough to break a glass wall but I just bounced back and fell on the ground. As I lay there I looked up and saw this endless darkness above me. I took a deep breath and stand up I stretched my arms and walk towards the girl’s direction, and felt the barrier in my palms. I only noticed now that the barrier was cold, like it’s made out of ice. I immediately looked at the girl to see if she’s cold. Somehow I felt relieved to see that she’s not cold or anything, she just sits there silently and miserably. My heart starts to break as I look at the girl’s sorrowful face. I felt something warm coming out from my eyes and it flows down to my cheek then to the floor.

    Do I really want to comfort her that badly?

    Do I really want to go near her, and whisper softly to her ears that everything’s going to be okay?

    Yes, I want it really, really badly that I would sacrifice anything, but still I couldn’t do anything. I just stand there staring and now I’m crying, I’m useless I shouted again and again as I pound this invisible barrier. I know she can’t hear me but still its worth to try, my hand grew tired from pounding and I landed on my knees, breathing heavily. And the tears just kept on flowing down to my cheeks. Then I wipe my tears away and took off my shirt. I shivered as the cool breeze touches my bare skin. I stood up, stretched my arms to the sides, and then looked up. Take everything you want my life, my heart, anything you want but please let me be with her just even for one second, I pleaded to the endless darkness above me. No one answered, as I stand there waiting, my tears began to flow again.


    ~to be continued …