I am stuck.
I don't know what my next move is.
Its as though someone pressed pause, and then lost the remote.
I have no clue where I am going anymore or what my objective is. What where my goals? Did I even have any originally?
Will my life ever play again, or is the almighty just going to be lazy and never manually press play so I can resume? I'm neither afraid, nor mad. I am just scared. Senselessly so.
My heart beat beats me senselessly...Why does everything have to be so intense with me? I am just trying to get through all this unpredictability.
Its also as though I am fine just for a bit, and that my smiles are genuine. But, then, the fates catch up with me, speeding up time and slowing me down, so that I have to fight again for whatever is at the end of the road.
I just want to know if the heartache is worth it. If the pounding my heart receives is going to be rewarded later.
Is there even a safe heaven that we all search for?
- Title: Turn it off
- Artist: Sunset Eyre
- Description: This is something that came from the heart and that needed to be written.The title comes from a Paramore song. The main line of the chorus is the source. And that's really where my creativity explodes and must be released before I suddenly burst! Also, one line of this story is from an amazing Kelly Clarkson song called 'Long shot'.
- Date: 02/13/2010
- Tags: turn