• The first seconds of every day is the same. Slowly regaining awareness, getting an overview of the situation. I'm still alive. I'm warm. I really need to take a piss. This last thought leads to complicated questions. Where is the toilet? Where am I? Where did I go to sleep last night? A slight panic sets in because I cant remember yet.

    Slowly regaining controll of my body I try to get an overview. Checking every mustle. Tiny movements and increased awareness of various pains confirm everything is still working. I have been sleeping on my stomac. My face is numb.

    Now to the scary part. Slowly opening an eye i see a dark room. This is good. I like the dark. The shapes on the dark wall are familiar. My knife collection. It is my room! i am at home.

    The toilet is across the hall. A feeling of joy spreads through my body. Starting in my head and going down my spine. I try to get up. but my body seems to heavy. I lay back down and let my eyes adjust and my mind clear. Thinking is not my strong point until sometime after noon.

    I try another pushupp, and fail yet again. Something is weying me down. Someone tries to hold back a chuckle. But i clearly heard it. Behind me and to the left of the bed.
    "t's not funny." i mumble.

    A sceam, louder than anything i ever heard before! Pain! Intense, burning pain! Everywhere. I try to scream but the pain is paralysing me. It is to much. I faint...



    The first seconds of every day is the same. Slowly regaining awareness, getting an overview of the situation. I'm still alive. I'm warm. I really need to take a piss.