• My Name, My Life

    I know my name, do you?
    Do you care about my name?
    I wouldn’t expect you too.
    My name doesn’t mean much.
    What about you?
    Do you think you’re name means something?
    What about me?
    Savannah
    What do you think of when you hear that name?
    I only think of me – the silent emo kid who no one seems to care much about.
    You pass me by and probably don’t think how I feel when you do.
    Probably couldn’t care less most of you.
    Then again I’m probably the same way.
    I don’t think of much when I walk around.
    Let alone the people who surround me.
    Wanna know why?
    How often do you people really see me around friends?
    With an actually smile on my face?
    If you do – how do you know it’s real?
    Ever considered I’m only acting so you don’t see the real me?
    How many of you actually know the real me?
    I wonder how many of you actually care.
    Do you even consider the people like me when you roam around those hallways?
    The outsiders who are always alone.
    Ever wonder what that’s like?
    I know first hand what that’s like.
    If you people noticed which most probably don’t -
    I’m almost always alone in those hallways.
    How many of you noticed?
    I don’t expect you to notice
    I don’t expect much for people in general.
    Considering of I’ve never really expected much of anyone.
    Why?
    I’ve never really had any one there for me.
    We’ve moved so many times that I’ve lost one too many friends.
    Maybe that’s why I don’t really have that many friends.
    Sick of having good friends then end up leaving and never hear from them again.
    I am sick of that.
    I’m sick of all the pain in me heart.
    I’m sick of those people who hurt me mentally and figure I’ll just get back up from it.
    Nothing happened and I’ll just move on like that
    Well I haven’t
    But what do you care?
    You’ve probably already moved on.
    But why should I care?
    I don’t.
    Now do me a favor and quit trying to screw my life up any farther then it already is.
    Just go away already.
    But knowing you – you wont
    You won’t leave me alone
    No one will leave me alone.
    Even if I asked
    Even if I begged
    Why don’t you just listen?
    Why won’t you just lave me alone?
    I just want to be left alone...
    Just leave me alone…
    Just leave…
    Just go away and stop hurting me…
    But you won’t will you?
    Why?
    Please…
    Just leave me alone…
    But you won’t will you?
    You never listened to me.
    Then again
    Who would listen to me?
    No one
    No one cares about me.
    Have you ever cared?
    Have you truthfully?
    Please don’t lie...
    I can’t take anymore lies
    Knowing you…
    You probably will anyway.
    Lie straight to my face.
    You tell me these things
    But they’re just lies
    I wanted to believe you
    Wanted to believe we could be more then friends
    But that was all just a lie
    Just lies that bury deep into my heart
    Yet you don’t care one bit
    You just sit there and laugh
    Laugh at my sorrow
    Laugh at my pain
    That’s all you ever seem too do
    Cause me pain
    Shove it in my face
    Then laugh
    I hated that
    I’ve hated you
    I want nothing to do with you any more
    You just cause me more pain
    More sorrow
    But what do I care?
    That’s all that my heart is used to
    Pain and sorrow
    But you don’t care
    You say you care
    But it’s just a lie
    Just a lie I thought I could believe
    A lie that I thought I could trust
    Now I can’t trust anyone with my heart
    I’m too scared of what they might do to it
    I don’t want them to break it any more then it already is
    I don’t want any more pain in my heart
    I don’t know how much more pain I can handle
    I can’t take anymore pain
    I don’t know what I would do…
    Not sure I could even trust myself
    I’m close enough to the edge as it is already
    What happens if I go over the edge?
    What would I do?
    What would you do?
    Would you do anything?
    Would you try to help me back on the edge?
    Or would you just watch me hang there
    Then fall…?
    Would you care if I fell?
    What would you do if I did fall?
    What if I didn’t want help?
    Would you listen then?
    I wouldn’t expect you to…
    You never listened…
    What if it was too late for me?
    Would you still try?
    Or would you finally listen to me?
    Leaving me there.
    Would you finally listen?
    Would you?
    Leave me there and never look back?
    Never look back and move on?
    Would you move on?
    Even if I died?
    Died?
    And never came back?