• Something about the other day...
    Maybe I was just being careless when I fell for you. we both know love isn't something that comes true. It's not like it matters. I won't tell you I'm way to freaking shy. My best friend always says I will always be lonely because I lock my self up tight. I try to be social but people just criticize my opinions and shut me out. I give up! I guess I can accept being alone (I CAN'T!) people are going to force me in that direction anyway. Why fight it? (I LOVE YOU!) Can't you see that even now I'm contradicting myself? I can't hear the thoughts that are important to me because that thoughts that are trying to kill me are taking over. Rain has started to fall. higher and higher the water rises. I can't breath (Do I want to?) tell me to keep trying. tell me that I'm worth it. Beg me to keep going! Don't just sit their with your friends while you watch me drown. (i give up) I will keep going (i won't) I will tell you how I feel (I can't) is my love for you just my hearts desperate plea for attention? Is it real (no...) yes? (no!) Shut up! I feel like I;m being split in two. Whjat I believe and what I want to believe (There is nothing to believe. No no no! I am worth it! (are not!) Help me. save me. (Don't....its a waste of time) Fix me even if i don't look broken.