• HE IS SO FAR AWAY!!!!! i wish he was here with me..... even if we did meet i fear that he might not like me or the way i look.... IM ALLWAYS SO SHY I BARELY SPEAK A WORD!!!! he is everything to me..... i have no friends or good relitives, but i allways thought that was the internets job. I had never had a bf in real life.... i was never even close to a kiss....... i can only think of him and wat he is doing..... i allways think that he dosnet rly like me and that he ish cheating on me...... cry i never rly had a real friend in real life........i allways think of suicide if he dosent come on for two or three days......... i wonder if he likes me as much as i do........ i wish i could meet him....... he was allways nice to me we have nown each other from the internet for about 6 or 7 months now........its weird when ever i see him online i get nervous and i make alot of mistakes......... and im super shy......not very brave, well i am a little bit brave im just not a very talkitive person.........well thats becuase i usually have no one to talk to.......wat do i call my feelings for him......love.......or is it something more idk anymore.........well i rly just want to be with him till the end of time he is everything to me and if he goes away i dissapear forever......