• I woke up screaming. Screaming silently and shaking violently. The tears wanted to come out but they wouldn’t, my eyes stayed dry and my mind drew a blank card after they shot open. My throat clogged and my lungs screamed for the still air that floated around my nearly lifeless body. I was even light head and dizzy lying on the floor, listening to the night hush me from outside. But I wouldn’t stay calm and I wouldn’t give up. I felt like I was fighting gravity and all of the laws of it. I wanted to jump up and float, float like I was real and not a small pebble on this Earth. No, no I wouldn’t stop. I would not let all this slip through my fighting fingers. I fought it all like a champion among the losing. I tried to kick gravity where it could hurt it. But how can I fight an intangible force? Nearly impossible, my mind muttered as my body slowly caved in on its self. Not here, the other part of my mind that was shining that dim light that held me together with a strand thinner than hair. Please, someone find me. Please, find me lying here half dead and half living. Hear my shut off pleads and struggling kicks. Find me before I slip off. Before an unfamiliar, yet trusting, hand takes me beyond this world. Before I become a distance memory. Before all that I fought for slips behind me and never come back. The seconds pass like hours and the pain has set. No one has found me and I’m feeling so deserted. Someone, please... find me….please. I don’t want your hand; I’m not ready to leave. I don’t want to leave this all behind. I don’t want to go. No… I’ve fought too hard. Please. Go away. Give them more time. Give me more time. I deserve the time. I deserve this life. I deserve.