• It's funny, you know those people you use to hang out with as a kid, how they always just seemed to innocent and then it turns out years later they aren't. You find out that they are some of the many people in your school on drugs, one of the many people in your school just alwys getting into trouble, and it seems like that person you thought you knew totally disappeared and all that's left is a stranger. Your bestfriend turns into your enemy when she or he too turns against you, and it's just one more person added to your long list of harrassers. Worst part is they know all your secrets and soon it seems like everyone else knows, I mean at least it seems that way to me. My bestfriend, or well use to be bestfriend was the person I told everything too. She knew all my secrets, how I suffer from Depression, Panic Disorder, ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, and that I'm bisexual. Soon everyone knew it, and I was dubbed crazy, even when I'm not. So what if I have mental disorders right, a lot of people do and I handle well most of the time. I write poetry and I sing, but now it seems like not even that's enough.

    I have new friends now, but sometimes it seems like even they are slowly drifting away from me and I'm even more alone. My one friend is thinking suicide and I'm scared for her, heck I'm even scared for myself and my own sanity. Am I still going to be able to handle everything, or will all my stress finally eat away at me. Sometimes I just think I'm freaking out.