• 5:37 pm waiting, waiting, and waiting. I hear fast footsteps climbing up the stairs, it must be her. Cassie burst into her room like a swat team busting a drug lords hide away. She smiled when she saw me lying on her bed. She tells me how sorry she was for getting out late at work, how happy she was to see me, how fun the bonfire will be tonight, and how much stuff she has to do before it. I helped her to pack some camping stuff for the bonfire tonight- a tent, a couple of blankets, flashlight, and snacks.
    A few minutes past by when there was knock at the front door. Her roommate answered she yelled to Cassie that it was her friends. Cassie asked if I could go talk to them because she felt like a bad party host for not welcoming or talking to them yet. Curious about how her friends look like, if they’re cute or not. I assured her that I would go make small talk to them.
    I would be lying if I said that I wasn't nervous on meeting these new guys or new people for that fact. I was always the good shy girl, who would rarely talked to anyone or had friends, use to sit quietly alone reading a book in class at high school, hate group work because it would mean that I had to talk to people, and never had a boyfriend or even a first kiss. Every step that I took down the stairs felt like walking towards a cliff and taking a leap. Not knowing if at the bottom there were friends to catch me or pit of lions to eat me alive.
    “Hi, I am Cassie’s sexy secrete Mexican lover.”
    Sticking my hand out to the guys sitting on the couch for a handshake. They laughed and each one shook my hand. The first guy introduced himself as Brendan he had brown hair, brown eyes, one of them was lazy, and he might have been blind in it. He seemed like plain john I wasn't really interested in him. Now his friend Jason in the other hand was tall, well most guys are tall compared to me. He had grey blueish eyes like a stormy sky over the vast sea and sandy blonde hair that looks so silky soft. I've never been attracted to any guy, even though part of me wants for the trembling knees, heart in my mouth, butterflies in my gut moments.
    We made small talk and played Mario kart for a while until Cassie was ready to go to the bonfire she planned it for all of her friends. As we were talking to each other I tried to hear of any indication of a girlfriend before I start making my moves on him. I was waiting to hear a “Too bad my girlfriend couldn't make it” or “Oh my girlfriend also blah blah blah”.
    We got to the bonfire it was a few minutes away from her house. As I got out of the car I looked around we were surrounded by a forest. I saw a small fire little bit farther back from the house, it was next to a farm field of some kind. The unnatural cool air of the late august night went through my two sweaters. I rubbed my arms with my hands staring at the dark woods and blowing white puff into the air realizing I should've brought another sweater.
    “Here have my extra sweater. It’s kind of chilly tonight.” I turn around to see Jason standing behind me and handed me his black St. Cloud state sweater.
    After helping putting up the tents not too far from the bonfire I started to drink and talk to everybody there to get to know them, but I found myself always talking to or standing next to Jason. Everywhere I go there he was like as if he had a twin that I didn't know about. I didn't think too much of it because we were really hitting it off and still not hearing hints that he was taken. A couple hours and a couple of drinks later I was standing next to Jason in front of the glowing bonfire laughing about how he kicked my a** in Mario kart. Playfully I pushed him on his arm told him that I just let him win and I could beat him anytime.
    “Maybe we can have a rematch next time you're up here.” putting his warm hand on my knee.
    Cassie called me from across the fire and waved for me to come over. I got up told Jason it would be just a second and I stumbled towards Cassie. She took me away from the bonfire we sat in front of the tents. She pointed out that I was spending a lot of time with Jason and I told her how he was making me laugh, that he gave me his sweater, he liked horror movies and anime just like me, going to St. Cloud state and working part time, all around amazing guy.
    “But I think he has a girlfriend” she puts her arm around my shoulders.
    “What?”
    Remembering everything that we talked about that evening if had mentioned it and I had not heard it. Jason was walking towards us with a bag of a cheap store brand Doritos in one hand and an unopened angry orchard crisp apple in the other. He sat very close almost leaning on me his knee slightly on top of me. Finally I had the courage to ask him nonchalantly if he did. I could hear my heart beating so fast in my chest.
    “Yeah I do” he looked at the bonfire that was away from us.
    I smiled to him to hide the fact that my heart had stopped. I should've know, I got up from the cold ground and walked back to the rest of group who were next to the blazing hot red orangey fire. He followed me which wasn't that hard for him with his long legs compared to mine. I turned around fast to face him and he almost bumped into me.
    “I I I’m mad at you, why didn't you tell me?” He explained that he had been going out with her for five years and she lived 4 hours away from him.
    All of the sudden car headlights drove up to the bonfire and blinded us. Who would show up this late? A middle aged creepy bald man got out of the car and walked over to the group. He was a friend of a friend that I didn't know and he was hitting every girl there. Seeing me standing alone he come over little bit too close for comfort and asked me if I would like for him to show me a good time tonight. Kind of panicked I turned my head to see who’s around. I saw Jason next to me talking to a tall guy. I pulled him next to me by his arm
    “Sorry, but I’m with him.”
    Jason wrapped his arm around my shoulders and I put my hand on his back. Even through his jacket and sweater I could feel his sculpted back. He had wide shoulder on top, narrow at the bottom, and I could feel the indention in the middle of his back. The creepy bald guy walked away from us and head to where my other friends were at. I leaned on Jason thanking him for protecting me like a shield from the creeper and if he could stay by me for the rest of the night.
    As we had our backs to the warm heat from the fire took his hand off my shoulder and ran it down my back, double crap. Where is going with this? I felt a fast quick squeeze on behind I gasp at the contact. I become increasingly embarrassed making my heart quicken and my face blush again. Where is this coming from? Why does he have such an effect on me? His good looks maybe? The way he looks at me? What should I do?
    It was 3 in morning when I suddenly felt tired and ready to head to the tents. As I was asking Cassie in which tent I was going to stay in to my surprise, Jason takes my cold hand clasping it with his long, cool fingers. No one has ever held my hand. I stared down at our hands I felt giddy and I tingled all over.
    He lets goes of my hand to open the first tent so I can step in. there was a full size air mattress, a few blankets, and a couple of pillows. I laid on the cold air mattress faced on of the walls and covered myself with three of the blankets. After closing the tent Jason came over and laid next me under neither the blankets. His chest pressing against my back with his warm arm over me and holding my freezing hand.
    I bit my lower lip in anticipation and found myself grinning like a schoolgirl. Turned to face him an involuntary shiver from the cold runs down my spine. He holds me closer to his chest and tight as if I would flout away from him if lets me go. Our lips centimeters away from each other, I can feel his cold nose next to mine. My attention was drawn to his burning gaze, I could’ve see the night sky in his eyes. For the first time in twenty years, I wanted to be kissed. I want to feel his mouth on mine. What if I do it wrong? I’ve never kissed someone before; Do I smash my face to his? What if I make too much spit and it’s sloppy? What if I don’t know how?
    He was breathing harder than usual and I had stopped breathing altogether. My mind was racing; I’m in your arms kiss me, please. He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and just as the wait was becoming unbearable, he plants a light kiss on my lips like tasting the waters if it was okay. I felt him shiver in return I shivered too. I put my arm on his muscular back and pulled him closer to me. I could feel his hand adverting down my back to my bottom. Grabbing and pulled me even closer to him.
    Stop! Stop now! My subconscious is metaphorically screaming at me, but I was enjoying it too much to stop now. There was noise coming from the bonfire, but the only thing I can hear are the sounds of our lips coming together. His hand traveled slowly under all the layers of my sweaters and his cold soft touch on my back send chills all throughout my body. His intentions were very clear when he slipped his fingers down in the back of my pants.
    “Nice try, but it well take more than a couple of drinks” grabbing his hand out of my pants.
    A Cheshire cat smile spreads over his face. His hand escaped mine and removed a piece of my hair that had fallen in front of my face. His thumb brushes my lower lip, his breath hitches. Placing his hand on my face and stared into my eyes for what it would seem to be forever. I could’ve of stayed like that forever.
    The tent door opened all of the sudden opened it was Cassie. She pointed it out that we were laying on her spot and she laid in between us ending our night together. As I was driving back home, I scold myself, forget it Jessica. I decided that all in all it was a very interesting and fun night, but I shouldn’t dwell on it.
    “Put it behind you. Anyways when well I ever see him again."