• What does it feel like to drift apart from something that used to make you feel whole? It’s a familiar feeling I can’t help but dread. It’s like slowly losing sight. Something that was once so clear has now become a blurry image of what used to be and what should have been. Or maybe it’s like losing a leg or an arm. A part of you is missing. And maybe, you did lose something. Even if you never meant to lose in the first place, but you did. Then you begin asking yourself questions. Why? Why do I feel like this? What did I do? What can I do?

    I’ve felt like this before and it’s not a pretty good feeling. They always tell us how we should all learn from our past mistakes. That’s the very reason why they exist. To serve as a lesson. To teach us something. And to help us avoid doing the same mistake twice.

    I know now what to do. To ease this unwanted feeling inside. I should’ve learned a long a time ago that there is no need to depend on anyone or anything in order to be whole. Everyone seems to be so obsessed with trying to be a part of something or of someone else’s life. That we begin to lose our own selves in the very process of doing so.

    That, is exactly what you’ve lost. You lost yourself in the process of valuing someone or something way too much. Like you no longer have any idea how function properly without them. And that’s just sad, because it shouldn’t be that way.