• You asked me why I couldn’t talk to you. I know partly why but I haven’t been able to piece all the pieces together because I don’t fully know them myself. I spend a lot of time on my bed thinking about what is going on inside of me and trying to understand it. Usually I just end up crying myself to sleep. So I thought that maybe I'd write, to keep track of what I feel, and also to have something to show you in case I am still not able to share with you how I feel in words. So I am going to try to explore my feelings and the reasons for my behavior and try to make sense of it all.