• Survival Through the Pain
    by Traci C.

    I sit here tonight,
    the light is sounding buzzy.
    As I bite my lower lip,
    the world goes fuzzy.

    I want you to understand
    the hurt I'm feeling.
    The pain that is way below the surface
    The wound that just isn't healing.


    Every hit I take?
    Makes the wound wider.
    Every poem I make?
    Makes the darkness a nano bit brighter.

    I want someone to hold me,
    when I'm alone in the dark.
    I need you to understand.
    I need you to see the unknown mark.

    I try to make you happy,
    but all I make is pain.
    Then you leave me,
    alone, cold, standing in the rain.

    On the inside of her, that nice little girl?
    There is pain screaming to get out.
    She cries all alone,
    refusing to let people see her pain scream and shout.

    She writes this poem,
    Knowing full well her friends don't care.
    They say they "see",
    But their pain just doesn't compare.

    She sits alone in her room.
    Blood strewn across this page.
    Crying and cutting,
    Again, scared of her brother's rage.

    The bruise isn't appearing,
    Not good enough proof.
    She wants to be away from this place.
    Click, click, boom. POOF!

    She keeps her promises,
    Waiting for her soul mate to arrive.
    Her lover, Her mate,
    Her only goddamn reason to survive.