• i no longer live as a girl filled with life... now i live as a walking corpse. I died when we left each other. just coming back to my senses now though. I still have buryed feelings for you... but word shall never again pass my lips. your favorite song, and favorite band. i listen to them daily now. its the closest thing i can have to you. If we were to get back.... i couldnt, the risk of dropping again is to great... one more time and i will be dead to every extent. no one will ever see me again... but i know that i need you. i want you back so badly. i cant stand to think of you with another girl.... makes me die a little more each time i think of it. My heart yearns for you it whispers to me "i need him...i need him" and my mind hushes "i need him, but im to scared now" what do i do? i want him back, i need him back, but i just cant take him back...when everything was my fault in the first place. im sorry, so very sorry. i know that you can move one, keep waalking, keep going higher and higher... but me, im at the end now, cant go higher, cant keep walken. im done, i hate myself for even being happy for one moment without you. breathing is cursed without you. its killing me. i hate myself for everything ive done. it must'ev been hard having to live with me for so long. i hope and pray that your life has many blessings....my love, my dear......farwell