• I'm like a ghost, my voice inaudible, myself invisible.
    I don't know what I did to them,
    but I know I care.
    All I ever do is try to help,
    I listen, comfort, help them through hard times.

    I have but one true friend,
    that doesn't care what I do, or what I look or act like.
    There is false kindness towards me elsewhere,
    nobody really cares.
    It's pity nothing more,
    all I can do is accept and pretend.
    But I want something real,
    to have more people I can trust,
    that I can confide in, that can comfort me...
    Again, I have but one person like that, but she is far away.

    I feel like my heart is freezing over,
    I can never go a night without crying myself to sleep.
    Why do I live still? What is my use if no one cares?
    Don't I deserve to die?
    I go through each day cautiously,
    trying to do everything right,
    will they accept me? No.
    I smile at them, they smile back,
    but scared like, tenatively.
    Are my teeth that horrid?
    My lips that cracked?
    Around them I am nothing but nice.
    What did I do? Am I that repulsive,
    that heads need to be turned?
    Why aren't I good enough for them?

    I speak, no one hears me.
    I cry, no one cares.
    I'm being eaten from the inside out.

    "I must've done something wrong,
    I have to apologize, but what did I do?
    I have to know, I have to be better..."
    Why must I always think that?
    But I do. Everything is my fault.
    I don't let it show,
    as long as they don't know it's ok.
    I'll cause more problems if it's known.
    But then again would they care?
    No..probably not.
    I can hold my tears 'til nightfall,
    when I'm finally alone.
    I have to be strong,
    I can't show my true feelings.

    If they don't want me why do I try?
    I can't stop...I want them to accept me.
    Why can't they?
    I'm too weak..to frail...
    no one can see the tears that I shed.
    No one can see.....I can't let them....
    All I can ask is, Why?