• I want to feel the sunshine on my finger tips.
    I want to feel the rose petals on my finger tips,
    Not the pinch of the knife onto my lungs.
    Oh how God calls my name,
    I wish He could just stay silent.
    Oh, how she calls worried all about me,
    But I'm more worried about her.

    How come I must be strong when
    I feel the world's over?
    How come I must be strong while
    The walls close in on me?
    How come I must smile while
    The tears run down my cheeks?
    How come I moved away when
    I need her so much right now?
    How come she's there while
    I suffer alone over here?
    How come I must do this alone?

    I wish I could hear the birds sing.
    I wish I could watch the waves.
    I wish I never got myself into this,
    All tangled in an addiction to try to make
    The hurt go away but it just got worst.
    Why did I leave the protection I had?
    Why did I leave the only best friend I had?
    I hear the voices in my head tell me
    "You fool. Look what you had.
    Now it's all gone."

    How come I must be strong when
    I feel the world's over?
    How come I must be strong while
    The walls close in on me?
    How come I must smile while
    The tears run down my cheeks?
    How come I moved away when
    I need her so much right now?
    How come she's there while
    I suffer alone over here?
    How come I must do this alone?

    Where's the light when you need it?
    Where's sense when you need it?
    Where's love when you need it?
    Where's hope when you need it?
    Where's faith when you need it?
    Where did I go wrong?
    Why did I go wrong?

    How come I'm here still when
    I feel like I'm gone?
    How come I'm still have some
    Hope when the world so bad?
    How come I can still smile when
    It's all about to go?
    How come I'm still going strong
    When I feel so weak?
    How come I believe it when she
    Says that I'll be fine?

    How come I let the pain get me?
    How come I came home drunk?
    How come I came home more hurt?
    How come I let the pain get to me?

    How come I let the panic get me?
    How come I took those things
    That I thought could help?
    How come I thought I could get
    Rid of it that way?

    How come the pain won't go away?
    How come it won't go away?

    I'll change I swear.
    I can't let the pain get to me anymore.
    I can't watch myself die everyday in regret.
    I can't come home not being able to walk steady.
    I can't keep up with my old ways.
    I can't keep with addiction that I thought could help
    When it laughs while I fall.

    I'm going to change.
    I can't be the same.