Black Holes & Deep Depression

• Artist: AssKetchum
• Description: A depressing poem.. Kind of long, but well worth the read. I spent nearly an hour or so on this. I've had some hard times lately, so this is just to get everything off my chest. Comment and critque please. :] And also check out other stuff of mine.
• Date: 03/09/2009
• Tags: black holes deep depression

Shutting out lights
Sitting in the darkness
Breathing in the hate
Sleeping away the happiness
Breathing in the depression
Is it my fault these things happen?
Do I even have a decision?
My life
It spirals away
My feelings
They shoot in different ways
The people around
They look away in disgust
Of the one girl
Who being in depression
Is a must
As the tears drip down my face
And they fall onto the ground
As the people
They tell me
There is something to do
There is something to say
She will never be ready
Shes too weak to lighten her frown
As the pain inside my body
Turns from deep to tromindous
I walk this long pathway
Of memories that dont exsist
Like happiness
As I smile upon my family
Like love
As I see through the eyes of him
Like Friendship
As I hold the hand of another
But the only memories that do exsist..
Are anger
As I scream at my best friend...
As I slam the door shut behind me...
As I tell her I hate her...
As I block out all friends...
And..
depression..
As I look into the eyes..
Of a cold dead body..
Lying on a hospital bed..
Motionless, nothing said..
As my last cousin, dies in pain
As I let go of the hand
the hand I've held so long..
As my father lets go first..
And his heart second..
As I leave the house..
The house that i've lived in so long..
And leave my memories
all the happy ones I've felt..
But it seems no matter how hard I try
the dark ones are always by my side..
Drawing me into deep black holes
That swallow up your feelings
Leaving you without a soul
You become a motionless person
With big black eyes
That never seem to lead anywhere
That never seem to cry
Your body,
it curls up
Your mind,
it gets lost
The only thing you can see now
Are all the things you cant stand
Like a child
Suffering
Like a baby
Crying
Like a poor family
Starving
Like a loved one
Dieing
These are the things
That get stuck in your mind
These are the things
That make you shut out the shine
You begin to drown
In the deep black hole
You begin to be drawn
Into the deep depression it holds
You no longer feel
You no longer smile
Your like a robot
Your no different than someone dead
And you can never change
This is what you have been given.
Black Holes
They capture you
Deep Depression
It tortures you
Black Holes
They slowly kill you
Deep Depression
It keeps you alive
Black Holes
And Deep Depression
It has captured me..
How did I get it?
Black Holes
And Deep Depression
Leave me now
For my soul has sinned
I stood before God
As A prodigy
And yet
I am left here
Black Holes
And Deep depression.
I wish there was a happy ending
But now I'm left with
Only.. Just pretending
Black Holes..
And Deep Depression.

Comments

[meizha]

Too long to read right now (still haven't slept). I'll favorite; read, and rate later. I can relate to the topic so I'll be back. =)

[Reprogrammed]

I love how you describe depression as endless. I know exactly what it feels like because I have been depressed for about a year and a half. I like the part about not feeling and being a robot because that's exactly how I felt when I was depressed. 5/5

[Faded Dreams5]

This was really good. I liked the metaphor of the black holes. You did a very good job of describing depression and pain--how you just can't get rid of it. I liked "shutting out the shine"--that just sounds really cool and makes a lot of sense too. Excellent work