• "Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above RUBIES..."
    - Proverbs 31:10

    So, it is said that you are priceless. I know now that this is true. From good to bad, to worse and back again- you have been there...

    I've always felt that there was something missing from my life and to keep myself from being consumed by this feeling, I held it back with euphoric drugs and alcohols. My times were wasted and spent like a faceless portrait. Above all, my mind was contemplating wasting my own self. I was inches from exile... But, that fateful night changed everything.

    Sadly, I had to let you go. Not from my heart but, from my arms. I fell apart like a pathetic and worthless piece of trash. Although, I had avoided being banished to oblivion, I was still alone. My cuts ran deeper, scars ripped open and my sickness was rampant on all the streets of faltering life. And this did not get better when you told me it was no more. I drowned myself in the bottle and sorrow for weeks. I even tried to keep you from coming back to me by trying to escape fate. But, it was not she whom I belonged to- no... It was you.

    There was love between us, not existence. There was a future for us, not repetative meetings. For once in my life, I felt a sense of purpose and reason! But, hate consumed me again. I crawled for many nights on an empty stomach and with the taste of vomit in my mouth. I ridiculed myself to appease that being of hate within me. Even now, I don't know why I had done that. But, I had the pieces of my life and you were my glue!

    Just as my situation began to brighten up, I was beaten senelessly and slapped down by the justified hand of KARMA. And what a bi**h she is. It was time to repent. But, I will NOT repent! I regret NOTHING! My struggle has made me stronger!

    Anywho, I realized that you are better than me in many things. You are worth more than a ruby. But, together, we are both worth more than the other jewels. Together, we are precious.

    I must thank you.

    I will be your Romeo if you'll be my Juliet.
    You can be my Bonnie and I'll be your Clyde.
    I will be the ruby of your heart if you will be the amethyst of mine...

    I love you.