• Here I lay awake at night wondering what went wrong
    I thought we fit, but you thought we did not belong
    As tears fill my eyes, I remember a time
    When I was with you, those years were my prime
    I remember that day, a Monday around noon
    I remember how it took forever, and made me swoon
    After a while you said yes
    That moment might have been the best
    We both got up and everyone awed
    Little did I know your love was a fraud
    From that morning on for ten days
    I watched you with every gaze
    I spent ever moment I could with you
    Thought that was what a boyfriend should do
    When I hugged you, I felt secure and warm
    When around you, the butterflies in my stomach would swarm
    Thought we were doing great, and I loved you so much
    I was enlightened by the slightest touch
    But how could I think such a thing would last
    Even though I had never felt this in the past
    And I remember that Thursday, when it all started
    I remember exactly how we parted
    You didn’t even want talk or do it alone
    By then I knew our future was blown
    I was to clingy, you needed some space
    That’s something I wish that I could erase
    So you said that you were breaking up with me
    As if that was something I couldn’t see
    I hugged you, and said we were cool
    Secretly I was dying, feeling used like a tool
    And here I lay wondering what went astray
    Why we couldn’t have just one more day
    Here I lay remembering the times
    When I thought we would eventually here wedding chimes
    But I know all is lost, as I put that gun to my head
    As I prepare to lay myself to rest in my bed
    I think it’s your fault as I grip the trigger
    Somewhere you’re probably showing off with a snicker
    I wish that we could’ve lasted as long as I hoped
    But why sit around and grope
    So I finally pull my finger, setting off a blast
    You were my best girlfriend, and also my last
    And there my life ends. Wish you could’ve seen
    What I was thinking, even though to you it’s probably obscene
    Later I hope you cry
    At the thought that you made me die