• I'm sorry darling you are so torn and passionate so timid and beautiful so broken... It burns me that I am closer and feel further I am unstable and rarely truly in control on my emotions... The patterns the cycles no longer make sense to me I am not who I was yesterday or last week and it weighs on me increasingly these days...

    I am sorry that I love you I know that I am not always there and not always willing sometimes I change and I can't find those feelings for you then they come back and I feel worse...

    I'm a mess and tomorrow I do not know how I will feel but today I want to fall asleep with the smell of your skin on mine so badly...

    At least for now while I can remember I want you to feel wanted...