• I looked around as my heart skipped a beat,
    as I fumbled my fingers and tapped my feet,
    I waited as time seemed to slowly move on,
    tried to gain comfort by humming a song,
    I heard my name for me to come by,
    I happily smiled but thats just a lie,
    I went up to the counter and sadly sat down,
    forcing myself not to cry or to frown,
    I answered the questions and signed my own name,
    I looked at the papers and myself filled with shame,
    I sat back down until the doctor opened the door,
    as the voice in my head said, "I can't do this no more."
    I stood up and walked to the place,
    as I undressed with an unsmiling face,
    I put on the gown and laid on the bed,
    the doctor came with the IV and I turned my head,
    more questions are asked and I answer them all,
    as I feel my world crumble and start to fall,
    my boyfriend comes in and holds onto my hand,
    I wish I could hug him and get up and just stand,
    but i lay there and lean in for a kiss,
    my wounds he could heal, something that I will miss,
    the doctor then turns me, gives a shot on my side,
    I tighten my grip and tried not to cry,
    I then lay flat and I'm taken away,
    stopped in this room as I hopelessly lay,
    they hold the mask up, close to my face,
    I take in deep breaths as I'm gone with no trace,
    I open my eyes and struggle to see,
    and ask myself, "What has happened to me?"
    I just lost my baby as tears fill my eyes,
    nothing to help with my endless cries.....