• Feeling so crazy lately and I don't know why. So saddened, so depressed yet so alive at the same time. Why am I to feel like this? Shaped by the world around me but held together by the ties i've left in you. I'm merely a thread in the sweetly sewn heart that lies in your chest. It beats as softly as the sping rain falls upon my deprived skin. Lonely nights and darkened windows surround me in a swirl of confusion and solitude. You left me standing there, on the front porch, with nothing but a painful reminder of how much I'll miss those soft carressing kisses. The days that pass seem like years with each dying second that you aren't holding me in your arms. It feels as if the thread that I am, has been cut away from its trusted position and tossed into oblivion. Cast aside like an unwanted picture to burn, I slip into shadow, unable to see around me. Places that once seemed to be home, a place to release these undying emotions, now close their doors and glare at my pathetic, pitiful, tattered soul. I'm fading away, slowly, painfully, suffering inside. I cry for help, like a bird in a cage sings it song, but none spare the hand of mercy. And so I let loose all hope, and fall silently into my deep void of dispair and forgotten memory.