• composing my next performance
    i stood ready for it all
    and everthing i was waiting on was deliverd like lightning

    leaving me in a complete heap of rubl
    not prepared for what was said and what followed
    lying on the ground.. cold.. heartless

    only when sunlights breath it my face did i realize it was real
    the pain, the hell i was in with my head spinning in every direction
    wanting it all to dissapear swiftly and gracefully as you did

    how long could i wait for you
    knowing you would never come back
    thoughts raceing threw my minde like bullets

    trying to reach out, trying to scream out
    falling in and out of sanity like i fell in and out of love for you
    and yet as expectid you never turned around to watch

    staying still leaving hell in my wake
    colled feeling nothing, thinking of your colled hard skin
    waiting for my life to end saturated with pure betrayal