• Im too strong and hard headed to show my emotions,
    but when i do, i break stuff and hurt feeling.
    Then, i break down and cry.
    I dont know how to show my emotions,
    Im always the strong one,
    I care too much for others to worrry about my own problems.
    I dont mean to break things or let the little things bother.
    I dont mean to hurt other people feeling to make my own feel better.
    I dont mean to punch the walls and hurt myself.
    I get told not to do that, just talk to someone,
    but how can i talk to someone when the person dont know me.
    Family is important, but its hard when your father always on go and he haves a girlfriend, and a mother who recently die and cousin that your just now starting to get to know.
    How is it, the only time family comes together is when something bad happen?
    How does a single person haves such a impact on your life, and when they go your okay and you deal with it but in the inside you feel its your fault?
    Why dont some people keep their promises?
    Why does it feel like your the only one suffering?
    People around you, their lives are going great, but why does it seem like your faling at life and everything in it?
    why cant when ones happy we all are?
    I want to tell my father on how i feel about his girlfriend so soon but i dont want to ruin his happyness.
    i want to tell my sister she lucky her grade are great while mine are faling due to my choice to care for my mother.
    How is it when you work soo hard to do something and you make a promise, in the end its never a winning and all the hard work and sacrfise is a falture.
    Sometimes i feel like a loser, thats keeps lossing in a never ending battle.
    I try soo hard but i get no where, its like im put here to be in a hell where my effort is nothing, all my hard work and never giving upness is over looked.
    becoming old but wantting thing to be like before the cancer, before her tummy tuck, before she felt low of herself, before i came to relized this everything.