• Hope,
    It’s gone now.
    Replacing it is the empty feeling.
    The feeling you get when the air has been knocked out of you.
    The water is everywhere and there’s nothing to do but wait.
    Wait for it to close over my head for the last time.
    I go under
    But then I come back to the surface that rises above me.
    I am trapped.
    I have no where I can go as the deadly waters swirl around me.
    The rain batters my head as I feel the water sucking me down.
    It’s trying to kill me, kill me so it can feed the horrible creatures.
    Even now those creatures swim below me, waiting for my struggle to end.
    But I can’t stop trying.
    I know there’s no way I can get out of this.
    But I still swim
    I feel so heavy now
    My head going under again and again
    The water stings my eyes and it almost hurts to breathe
    But I will keep going
    I’ll keep going until my body gives out.
    Hopefully it will happen soon
    I don’t know how much more I can or want to take of this horrible existence
    I don’t even really know how I’m still alive
    I don’t even know why I would want to be alive
    My legs give out and I go under yet again
    My arms pull me back to the surface again against my will
    I want it to end, oh please let it end
    I have so many regrets still but I don’t care anymore
    The water closes over my head and I stare at the lights above me
    The water closes tighter around me as I sink, like a cool embrace
    As I watch the last of the bubbles leave my mouth and float to the surface