• Do you know what total misery and devastation is? It's when the person you care about more that anything else in this world, more than your family, more than your friends, tells you that they never cared about you. It's like having your heart ripped out of your chest and not just broken but stabbed, butchered, crushed, complete mutilation. It gets to where you hardly eat, you barely sleep, and when you do sleep he's there. Everything goes back to when things were perfect, but just before your lips touch you wake up, just to realize that you were dreaming, and it crushes you even more. Then eventually the sorrow turns into total anger and rage and you want nothing more than revenge. You would do anything just to have a little satisfaction. And you get so made and so angry, that you don't think, you can hardly feel. Then you get your bit of satisfaction, your not happy. It hits you and you realize that you just did the one thing you never wanted to do, You hurt the one you love. Then the pain and misery is that much greater. And then you realize that the one you love now not only doesn't care about you, but wants you dead. And you want nothing more than to be dead and you start to wonder "why not....why not die?" - Winter Viera