• a flash, as quick to intrude into my conscience as it was to take it's leave
    one moment, then it was gone, and with it, all of my chances for change
    that was all it took for the end to come.

    you begin realize when you are dying, that life was pointless, but that it didn't have to be
    and you realize that you didn't want to die, because to die is to be forgotten
    and i wouldn't wish that on anyone
    but it came, and for a brief millisecond before, i was at ease.
    for that brief respite, i felt invigorated, as the flow of time lay frozen to me
    my mind burst with feelings, emotions, and other irrelevant sources of thought
    from the vaguest of memories to the dreams i spent days pondering the meaning of
    everything came, restoring me to my former glory
    but then, once again, as quick as it had appeared, everything was gone
    resigning me to only the repetitive, monotony of darkness
    to keep me company forever

    if only i could break free of the chains that bound me to this eternity!
    then i could become all of the things that i swore i would be
    do all of the things i never did
    but alas, the bindings hold tight against my wrists
    and keep my soul, locked in place forevermore