• I said i hate you
    i lied to everyone
    to myself
    dee down
    i love you
    i bury that feeling w/
    rage, hate pain
    confusing thoughts, feelings
    for you
    all jumbled up in my head
    i straighten them w/a razor
    a beaded red line
    on my wrists
    for you

    the emptyness i feel
    is all too much
    it's so confusing
    blocking out my love
    leads to my numbness

    your smiling face
    smiling at me
    confuse me
    my true feelings
    rise up from deep w/in me
    i love you
    i hate it
    so confusing and wrong

    you flirt w/ her
    thats 15 more beaded lines
    bury the emotional pain
    your desire for
    someone else brings
    i hate you

    the pain
    and anger
    over you
    i hate living w/ this feeling
    i'd rather be dead
    when will this s**t end

    from the moment i 1st saw you
    i told myself not to love you
    i tried
    you were so friendly
    you
    my family
    i wanted to get over you
    your kindness sucked me in
    i pushed you away
    you stopped trying
    i wish i hadn't
    10 years later

    i still love you
    i saw you today
    with your beautiful wife and
    adorable kid
    letting the blood drip own
    taking away
    the pain
    i pushed you away
    "what have i done?"