• The Precipice:

    It feels like I'm standing at the edge of a precipice,
    My future unknown...
    The Precipice is vast and hazy,
    The thick fog of uncertainty causing doubts.

    Sometimes I feel like the fog is lifting,
    I can see my future; my novels published,
    And my life... happy.
    {These times are rare but welcome}

    But there are also times where I stand at this Precipice,
    And see future failures through the fog,
    Whispers of a wasted life,
    Echoes of the nothingness that is my existance.
    {These times are common and scary}

    But most oft I stand at this Precipice and see nothing,
    Nothing but the thick fog of uncertainty.
    My future scary and unknown.

    Before I arrived at this precipice,
    I traveled down an undetermined path,
    Sometimes I strayed and took a rocky, uneven,
    And overall terrifying path.
    There were times I was accompanied,
    By those who loved and cared.
    People who led me to,
    Or at least tried to lead me,
    To the places where I would be safe.
    Yet most of the time...

    I Was Alone

    I continued down this path,
    Unsure of why I was walking.
    There were times I stumbled,
    Times I was pushed or tripped,
    And times I simply fell.
    Sometimes people helped me up.
    But other times i was simply alone...
    Left to pick myself up, and return to the path.
    By doing this I learned to not accept help,
    I learned to not trust...

    There were times I simply wanted to stop.
    Too tired of walking and,
    Continuing down a path,
    With no true destination in sight.
    During these dark and desperate times,
    I would stop, and wish to go back,
    But along this path,
    There is no turning back,
    Or retrying.
    So I simply wished to stop,
    And end my pointless journey.

    Yet I did not,
    I kept going...
    Which is by far the hardest thing I've ever done.
    Nevertheless, I kept going,
    And now I've reached this Precipice.
    And I am Terrified.

    Terrified of this Uncertainty called The Future.

    I know this.
    The future is scary.
    But I can survive.
    I must overcome the fear.
    I must not be afraid,
    To take a step into this Precipice.

    So I have.
    And my foot has found a broken,
    And confusing path.
    But as I stand thinking on this path...
    It begins to repair itself,
    And form a path worth walking on.

    There are still times,
    I take a step in the wrong direction.
    And I still fall,
    But I've learned to pick myself up.
    To get back up and dust myself off,
    While I find my way back to the path,
    Leading to the Future.

    I've also learned to accept help,
    And ignore my pride.

    So,
    Here's a word of wisdom,
    To all you facing this Precipice of fear,
    And Uncertainty called The Future.

    Don't be afraid to take risks.
    Don't be afraid to try.
    Don't be afraid to love and care.
    Don't be afraid to believe.
    Don't be afraid to speak out.
    Don't be afraid to fight for what you believe in.
    Don't be afraid to be yourself.
    Most importantly.
    Don't be afraid to Fail.

    Our Failures are the building blocks to our future successes.


    Copyright (c) Crystal Rivet, December 7, 2009.