• I don't know who I am
    I can tell you what I was
    Or what I want to be
    I was sweet and innocent
    I was daddy's little angel
    I was momma's little girl
    I was perfect in their eyes
    I was smart and pretty
    I was adored by everyone
    I was popular....
    I was.........
    ............. loved .............
    Times changed though
    And people moved one
    Things happened and everything was a wreck
    Everything went off course
    And I got left behind
    All i wanted was to be loved again...

    And then I changed.

    I became depressed
    I was hurting myself
    I was suicidal
    I didn't care about anything
    I hurt people
    I pushed everyone away
    I wanted to die in this hole I dug for myself
    I got lost in a black hole
    I got swallowed by all my feelings
    I couldn't remember what love was
    All it was was just a mystery

    Then I changed again...

    I don't know what I am now
    I get called lots of things
    Hateful and hurtful
    A monster
    I've been told I ruin everything
    I've been told I'll never know what love is...
    And I agree..

    I am a monster
    I hurt myself
    And I want to die
    I hurt everyone, I hate everything
    Except the poetry, it helps ease the pain
    It helps me get out all my feelings
    But I still hurt people
    No matter what I do
    I'm rude and awful, I know
    I'll never know what love is
    Because I have no heart to feel it with

    I want to be nice again
    I want to be sweet and innocent
    I want to be a good friend
    I want to be trusted
    I want to be what I was way before
    I want to know I have friends
    I want to know i won't hurt people
    I want to be a good person

    I don't want to be a monster
    I don't want to be mean and hateful

    All I want is love...
    But i don't know what I am now...
    Look at what you made me...
    I'm your flesh and bones,
    Your blood runs through my veins,
    And everyday it sickens me
    I look in the mirror and i look just like you
    Your eyes
    Your hair
    Everything is the same
    I'm just like you, Mom
    i am your daughter
    Look at what you made me
    Can you see me under all these masks?
    Under all these scars?
    Under all this pain?
    You made me what I am,
    And can you tell me what I am,
    Because I don't know now......
    -Britny