• Confusion.
    Fear.
    Hate.

    Love.
    Courage.
    Control.

    These are all things I feel, things I need.
    My life is spiraling downhill fast and I don't know how to stop it.
    Why does mt emotional state have to revolve around him?
    My life is out of control and it's all because my heart still needs him.
    Why can't I forget him, get over him, and be happy as I am now?
    Is my current relationship just a distraction from what my heart wants or is my heart being greedy and wanting both?
    If I see him now, will I abandon all logic and try to be with him or will I act like i feel nothing and smile to hide it?
    If there's anyone who can help me figure it out then please help.
    As I am now, I might fall apart since my life is still spiraling farther and faster downhill with each passing day.