• The first time was filled with pain
    The pierce of my flesh and your alabaster teeth
    Then a black void of nothingness.

    Waking with no memory of the night before
    Just the mark of the truth
    And the forbidden act that we partook in.

    Now, when I offer you ask, “why?”
    I never answer you with the truth
    Yet after that first time,
    I covered my wounds
    Not to block out my shame
    But so that he wouldn’t know
    …He knew.

    But I can’t say goodbye to this feeling
    In my heart that reminds me of
    That night with you.
    The fear that rushed over me
    The intense comfort
    And the gentleness of his arms
    Holding me
    And protecting my innocence.

    I knew the dangers of my actions
    And all I could think of was serving you
    With my heart.