• Backspace, backspace, backspace
    or maybe even erase
    ******** that, just wipe everything out
    that's what I've been trying to do
    four years straight.

    The memories like film tape, but I can't cut and edit
    So it leaves me in the dark watching back at myself
    wondering when the hell I can finally applaud, or better yet
    reach out and smack myself.

    I kinda wish the screen of this present
    was just a mirror that I can break to run away
    from the shame.
    I thought of wanting to run towards a tunnel of light
    but then I realized I just wanted to crawl out of this character.

    If I just stepped out from the mess in my head,
    will I still be crazy?
    I wonder if I leave all the past
    will I have one night of peace
    no tossing in the sheets.
    And if I forget about the things that were said,
    will I finally be able to smile in the mirror,
    or better yet through lens.