Last Week was every hard on me, i was doing a lot of crying and mopping about, well so far nothing has changed, other then the fact that i became Emotionally and Empathically Numb for the time being, but as the name says there is a bight light in all this darkness, well first of all my father managed to get me an Autographed Picture of Nickelback Signed by the band, i was so happy to get it, and today, i attempted to fix my messed up hard drive after a few times getting pissed off i rebooted and scan disk came up to can my drive and next thing i knew my hard drive was working again.
who knows maybe i might be getting better luck, however there is still a few things that need to change in order for my luck to go back to normal, i've also been doing a lot of thinking a lot and i've made some changes to myself for the next time i get a Girl Friend. i made myself swear not to get lazy again, i swore that i would not fight anymore, i also swore that i will never try and "sell" anyone for anything. these are some of the things that need to be changed. I hope someday to i will have a chance to correct the things i did wrong in my relationship with Dwayna and prove to her that i can be just as good of a boy-friend as i can be a best friend.
I mean Its got to the point that i even prayed to My Lord and Lady for help, i prayed to all the gods.... and to be honist, i don't usually pray.. and i don't mean "lazy praying" i actually got on my knees and i was in tears by the end of it, then i tossed and turned all night, but shockingly managed to get enough sleep to count.
<sigh>
I though i would add this poem for all to read
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So many times I thought of that day,
When you held my hand
then walked away.
The pain in my eyes burned through you then
When I close my eyes now, I see it again.
A love so young, so unbridled and raw
Being trapped and confused was all that I saw
How could I know what I feel today
When you closed the door on my heart
And walked away?
Years went by and we both moved along
While part of my heart was still singing your song.
Then I saw you again
And now I can see
The same eyes, the same heart
Looking right back at me.
I hold you so close, I’m afraid to let go.
To lose you again? How do I know?
But here you are now,
And you’re with someone new
Does he hold you and kiss you
And feel like I do?
Faced with the options
You know you must choose
Will it work with us this time
Or, will we lose?
Is it all about timing?
Or all about fate?
Together again?
Or is it too late?
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Well thats really all i have to say for today.
This is Raven Dragonfire for channel 13 news signing off.
 Raven DragonFire · Wed May 09, 2007 @ 12:44am · 0 Comments |
