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Hello peoples. I wrote 9 new poems yesterday and I'll put them at the end of my entry. anywas, a lot has been happening with my father and when we sent him things about him paying and helping my mom out wiht money, he all of a sudden wanted me to visit. I thought about it and was thnking, hey....Hawwia! But then the reason him and my mom are divorced is so much more important.....he cheated on her and screwed around with my moms best friend, or X best friend now, and is now married to her. Gosh what a b***h.....exscuse the language please. But yeah, so then my mom went to our lawers office today and he made new papers for my father to follow and it states that I cannot go and visit him, like I care. As a matter of fact, he has to come here if he wants to see me. I havn't seen him for around.....5 years now and he barely calls. Since he never calls to talk to me, he doesn't know me. He doesn't know what music I like, what sports I play, my favorite color. He doesn't know anything, and really, I want him out of my life completely so he can't call up, cussing at me or my mom, but with those new papers he can't do that anyway. Oh wells. Today they said the ACT people over the intercom and they chopped my name up so bad!! They siad it like Lowven. OMFG, how hard is it to say, Lovin? Not that hard but whatever. lol they got it right the second time around. Well here are those poems and I just wrote another one so hope you all like them...
-Bloody Dreamer-
A heart so heavy that it may fall, and when it does it will take it all. The way the girl hides her fears, is to cut her arms and cry bloody tears. Her dreams full of darkness and all the pain, the red outside her is the falling rain. But one night it ends in a bloody dream, her body so limp, no room to scream. This bloody dreamer had no faith, her heart was lost and so her place.
-Black Roses-
He layed her head down in the dirt, as one tear feel, he straightened her skirt. Looking at her face, so peaceful and calm, and he now knows what he did was wrong. But it is just his nature and way of life, just like it is a cutter's to use the knife. Violets are gone and Roses are black, and he really wishes he had her back. But what's done is done and she is dead, now the moonlight shines above her head. He would feel a hole ripped in his heart, if only he hadn't lost it in the start. He takes out a single black rose, and lays it on her fragile pose. Hoping and wishing she were still there, so he could tell her how much he cared. Violets were gone and the roses dead, your blood still there and spilt out red.
-Broken-
People wonder why I cry each night, why I always have to fight the fight. But I can't tell them for they don't know, how to help or if they don't where I'll go. But I'm too broken to even try, I'll just lay down now and die. You think you know me but you don't, and I won't explain it I promise I won't I'm too broken to even try, so now I'll lay down and die. Your the reason that I have no soul, your the reason I have no life goal. I'm forever lost and inside I'm broken, without your empty love as my token. I'm too broken to live on, so now I'm dead and I'm gone.
-Empty Rain-
I sit in this room of all white, I'm forced to remember that painful night. That one when you said we were no more, the one where you left me crying at the door. I lost control so very past, it all blured and became my past. I killed your girlfriend and then you, when you said you loved me I thought it was true. But I now know that it was a lie, now that I think about it I want to cry. But there are no tears left in me, if you were here you coud even see. My pain falls in the empty rain, it falls and mixes with my blinding pain. So I only have on more thing to say, I wish you would have died earlier one day.
-Blind-
You think I took it easy and went on strong, but sadly your not right you're terribly wrong. I crumbled under those words and went blind, you are so good and it was perfectly timed. Because it is strange how fast you recovered, and went along to find some other. So now I'm blind and I think you're dead, but I'm not sure for thoughts swirl in my head. Where you blind when you said we were over, or did I crush a small four leaf clover? Please whispere the answer in my ear, well you could if you were still here. But I'm so blind and can only cry, your new girl shakes her head and asks why. What a dumb thing to say to a girl like me, she was as dumb as you and blind to see. So she has joined you in your eternal grave, now I'm lost to being love's eternal slave. I'm too broken and blind to see, what the hell you had to do to me.
-Unpure Beauty-
She sways back and fowarth in front of you, you just stare and think can this be true. Nice in the red dress and pale skin, but beneath her's in a life of sin. She is not normal must farther from it, too late it will be when her past is lit. Thousands of years of death and pain, as much as a broken girls blood rain. So sweet and pure is all you can think, you're pushed farther, closer to the brink. Too late nobody can save you from her, as you're dipped into a deadyly, bloody swirl. So unpure and ugly is all you can think, too late you just hit the breaking brink.
-Please-
Please know how hard this will be, since I say this without you here to see. They took you fast and I was too slow, but now there are a few things you must know. Mom still cries as well as the rest of us, I'll remember you each time I get on the bus. Five days is not a long life and it doesn't seem fair, but it seems most of the world really doesn't care. Baby brother I love you with all my heart so, why didn't I die and leave so you wouldn't go? I could have taken your place instead, but it's too late you're already dead. I swear on my life that I will remember, all those days January through December. Those are my words that attach to your soul, now you are aware of my newfound goal. Branston we love you with all of our hearts, and soon we will all get fresh starts. So please hold on a little more for me, and please don't cry little baby. You will be with us forever and always, now and then and in these new days.
-Starless Sky-
So fragile and pure yet broken and tainted, showing the marks of being painted. I wonder why you stole the stars, they were to only thing to heal my scar. Is that your reason, so I would feel pain, without the stars there would be no rain? Tell me now why you painted they sky, I demand to know just tell me why. the sky is starless and sucked of bliss, just like I was with your farewell kiss. But now I think I know your ways, it was to remind you of those good days. Starless skies and scars so deep, reaching further, watch it begin to seep.
-Tainted Angel Wings-
Something so pure and full of good, knows what to do and when it should. But nobody is perfect except maybe you, but you're a tainted angel so what did you do?
Tainted angel wings sit silently in the sky, and can be heard asking why oh why? Nobody is perfect so don't try, for you know now that it's a lie.
I am trying hard to feel how you feel, but your emotions are strong and so unreal. Your lonley torn and inside you're dark, broken forever seems to be your mark.
Tainted angel wings sit silently in the sky, and can be heard asking why oh why? Nobody is perfect so don't try, for you now know that it's a lie.
Your wings are ripped, tainted and torn, just like your love, so fragile and worn. I look into your darkened eyes, and what I find is no surprise.
Tainted angel wings sit silently in the sky, and can be heard asking why oh why? Nobody is perfect so don't try, for you know now that it's a lie.
Take my hand and I will be, the only good you will need to see. Even if you don't want me back, even if your heart turned black.
Tainted angel wings sit silently in the sky, and can be heard asking why oh why? Nobody is perfect so don't try, for you know now that it's a lie.
So tainted angel please love me too, as much as I have always loved you. I see you as perfect and pure in my eyes, and to me that is no real surprise.
-Black Love-
Black rain falls and streaks the sky, as I turn your love over wondering is it a lie. I don't want to lose you but I'm slipping away, for when I speak I get, huh, and that is all you say. So do you love me or are our emotions black, and if you say yes I don't even want you back. So please answer this question of mine, and be quick about it for we are short in time. Say it before the black crow flies, say it before the seagull cries. Just say it and mean it and I'll be ok, I'll take my lost love, day by day. So what is the answer is our love black? If the answer is yes then i don't want you back. So please answer this question of mine, and be quick about if for we are short in time. Say it before the bloody rose dies, and when you say it please won't you look into my eyes. So please my love just tell me the reason, our love should feel like Spring but is the winter season. So is our love really black? If the answer is yes then I don't want you back. Please answer this little question of mine, and be quick about it for we are short in time. So is our love black, is our love black, too late you can't answer because I won't look back.
Yeah. Hope you all like them. Anways, I'm gonna go now and finish my soda. Talk later.
Always.::.Lovin
Zombie Doll` · Mon Apr 11, 2005 @ 10:15pm · 2 Comments |
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