I'm in a thinking kind of mood.
I just don't have any ideas of what to think about. There's a lot of things I'm thinking of, but not in any in-dept way. Maybe I need a reason to think about something in such a way, before I'm able to. I'm not really sure.
In any case, life is settling down again. I still get the feeling of my heart dropping into my stomach sometimes, but I guess that's just a side-effect I'll have for a long while. It's sort of discouraging, really. Not much I can do about it though, so I might as well get used to it.
I've decided that I definently don't care what boy likes me. I've heard from three, and I don't like any of them as more than friends. Not to be a b***h, but really, do you think I want a boyfriend right now? Or do you think that I even want to know that they're out there? I can't say I do. So I've come to the decision that until some really amazing guy comes along and knocks me off my feet or something, I'm not going to go with anybody. I'm alright now, but I'm still not ready either. I still care so much about Kyle, I just don't say I like anybody right now because I'm not sure if he would count. Oh gosh, boy. Look what you did to me.
I'm also really tired of the fact that younger and younger kids are becoming more obnoxious each day. They're all so impolite, materialistic, foul-mouthed, aggressive, loud, and just really irritating. Some of the sixth grade girls are already gold-digging sluts, and some of the boys think they're just the most bad-a** thing ever created. Right.
Then some girl in my third period is talking s**t about me behind my back, and then lieing about it when I tell her to say it to my face. If she thinks I'm a hypocrite, then I'd appreciate it if she told me to my face. Don't go bitching to my friends, who in turn tell me what has been said. I have one friend who said he's about to go off on her if she talks about me again. I'd like to go off on her myself. I'm normally not into the whole drama thing, and I'm still not. However, if somebody wants to start s**t and talk about me, I'm going to fix it. School's stressful enough without some skank talking about me.
"I hate hypocrites. They piss me off. Everybody in there was being a hypocrite."
That's what she told me the other day. You know what? Everybody on the Earth is a hypocrite at some point. Denying it just makes you an ignorant little twit.
I'm seriously going to beat her face in or something. She's so stupid, god.
People are being ********.
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