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GAH. k, it's official. Life sux.
I mean, sure u have ur friends, but wut good is it if u hardly ever get to see them? I mean, all this bad stuff around u is happening.
All this bad stuff is happening TO you.
And yet there's always somehing worse in the world happening.
Wut right do i have to be exhausted or sad or annoyed?
I don't.
Life throws me a curve ball and i can't help but swing away.
Too bad it's a strike every time. =/
There's always the saying "Life isn't fair."
But that is a true understatement.
Why must life be filled with hardships?
So we can learn to cope with them?
Why have to cope with them in the first place?
Sure it's fun for the story books,
But those all end with "happily ever after."
How am I to know that I'm going to have a happily ever after?
And what if i saw my future and I DID?
So what?
What about all the people around me?
What about the ones that matter to me; the ones I care about?
The ones who have struggles that they have to learn to deal with every day?
Struggles that are life-changing.
That impact on a greater level than choosing to eat an apple or a potatoe chip.
What happens to them when life gets TOO tough for the tough to get going?
What happens to them when it really counts?
Can I help?
No.
Not with what they're going through
So I ask... what right have I to complain?
What right have I to be sad?
I have no right, and every right.
I am sad for others, Yet I complain for myself.
Why?
i don't know.
Perhaps I just want to fit in.
Or perhaps i just want to feel like I've accomplished something.
Perhaps I want sympathy?
No. I don't want sympathy.
I want change.
Will it ever happen?
So many questions and yet the hourglass is closing in...
My time is running out.
Perhaps I'll figure it out another day.
For now, I guess I'll just sit back and wait for life to enfold itself.
See if I get my "happily ever after"....