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So much pain...
Floating face down...
I'm losing air as much as sanity...
please don't help me this time
Let me lose to this...
I'm tired of coming to...
Only to get screamed at...
Only to get disciplined for who knows what...
Let the bubbles dance around me...
Let them free...
Let me lie down on the bottom...
Don't help me up...
Let this sea grass entangle me...
Let it play with my unconscious body...
Let the current drag me away when it's done...
Let something else find me...
a Fish....
a turtle..
a crab...
whatever it may be, more significant than I....
oh please forget me...
don't come back for someone so minuscule....
someone so, unusable...
Why waste yourself over someone so...
the current is so soothing...
It's almost like it's taking to me to where I need to be...
I'm sinking further....
bubbles haven't come up for a long while...
The marine life passes me by without much acknowledgment...
I don't mind...
Where can I go now other than to where the current takes me?
All I can do is let the water inside...
my entire being unable to move...
I don't know where I'll end up...
But I do at least know, it's where the ocean will want me to be...