On April 22, 2003 my family and I found out that my mom had terminal cancer. She had gone to the doctor earlier and had found out she had cancer but the doctor thought that surgery would be able to get rid of it. Unfortunately it had spread a lot more than they could tell from outside of her body and it was then that the doctor decided that my mom had a year, maybe two left to live.
At this time I was 15 years old and living in Florida with both of my parents. I have two older brothers who had already moved out at that time. My father is a difficult man and very mean so I was never close with him, only my mother. In 2002 my parents and I had moved from Minnesota to Florida but upon hearing the news of my mother we moved back to Minnesota later in 2003 because we had family up there and I had friends. I currently reside in Minnesota, as do my parents, but I'm living with my fiance about 25 minutes away from my parents house. I am 19 years old now.
My mother has been taking multiple pills each day for years now. She has to go to chemo and that affects her body very negatively. I have seen her break down into tears because the pain inside her body has been so bad. Her cancer has since spread throughout her body to her lymph nodes, her spine, her legs, and I'm not sure where else. This disease has almost taken the life away from her. She was once so strong and could stand up tall and was such a beautiful woman. Now she has become very weak, she is constantly in pain, the medicine she is taking is making her slow in the mind, she's almost always on the verge of tears, she cannot stand up straight because it hurts too much, and she has only a little tuft of hair. She is still the most beautiful woman alive, to me, but her cancer has really taken a toll on her body and mind.
Earlier this month I recieve a call from my mother and she said she had some bad news. Her tumor markers (tumor markers are substances, usually proteins, that are produced by the body in response to cancer growth or by the cancer tissue itself) had gone up drastically meaning that her cancer was getting worse and possibly had only one year left to live. I was very upset for a few days and it was then that I decided to enter my avatar into the arena because it was the least I could do. I got to show my mom the avatar and show her all of the loving comments that people have left and she was so happy that I was doing that and she loved what people were saying about it.
I don't know how much longer my mother will live with this pain or if there is even the slightest possibility of her being able to beat it but for now I just want to make sure she is happy.
I'll add another entry later. Thank you for reading.
For My Mom · Mon Oct 29, 2007 @ 07:26pm · 3 Comments |