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hm. i'm bored again. :[

i'm bored & i've been thinking about stuff.

which sucks. 'cause now i'm more confused D:

& it's not like i can just go up & ask about it.

'cause that would be weird & awkward.

dammit.

yeah, you probably have no idea what i'm talking about.

which is ok.

since i most likely don't know you.

& that's cool.

you're probably thinking, "well just ask. it's not that hard."

but it is. it's complicated. :/

i don't want to ******** up.

bleh.

i've almost asked. like, a lot.

but no.

i fail & don't.

'cause i'm lame like that. :[

EH.

i want my soundtrack, dammit. it would cheer me up.

cheering up would be nice.

not wondering anymore would be nice, too.

an answer would be awesome.

but, for that to happen, i have to ask. D:

ughhhh.

& of course, i have no one to go to for advice about it.

i know what the people around me would say.

& that sucks. it doesn't help.

it's just noise.

there's enough noise already.

noise in an empty space.

which makes it louder & that much more annoying.

unbearable.

ack.

i hate it when i'm like this.

i really should just suck it up & ask. or at least bring it up.

really.

maybe.

i know i would feel better.

i wouldn't feel as confused.

i mean, i'd still be pretty confused.

& i'd be freaking about what the answer would be.

which, really, is worse.

i dunno. :/

oh well, i guess i have no guts, then.

why am i even writing in here?

no one ever pays attention to it.

which is proabably why i'm writing in here.

which is dumb. i could just write it in my notebook.

oh well. it's a nice way to pass the time.

rambling, is.

not thinking about it.

bleh.

i'm just getting myself worked up. over nothing.

nothing.

that's all. it's nothing.

that's all it'll ever be.

i'm sure of it.

& that's what sucks.

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