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"Goodbye mr. Alex's friend I'm trying to build up courage to talk to."

Something like that. It made me feel better in a way. But the way she named me...Does it mean that when she does talk to me We are going to have to start all over? Like nothing(our friendship, Our love) ever happened? I don't know if I'll be able to do that. I can deal with not talking about the Friday morning situation I think...But to truly feel better there is alot I am going to HAVE to unload. How I felt. About everything she did. And why I felt that way. to her and Sam both. They need to understand. What I did to get over it. The pain I felt when they took steps to remove me from their lives. After All I had done for them. Forgiveness it has to be there somewhere. But it is taking its sweet time isn't it? but if they want to be my friends again will it even be the same? I doubt it. I can try. I'll always be there for them. but my foot is going down. Especially since Her parents maybe even Sam's hate me now. Things would be much harder. I wonder if she saved the chipp picture? Does she want to talk to me because she got over me already? That's would suck. That fast...I dunno I'll talk to her when she is ready.


Everything.

My mom even wants me to stay away from her. After what happened at her house that Sunday. My mom said avoid her give her time. I guess I have to. My mom said she has problems. Ones I can't solve. But me I contradict. Everything. Everyone. I think what I told her is that She can't stop me. There are problems I can't solve. But I can be there to help someone through them. I told her there is only so much Avoiding one man can do before he breaks. I think she knows. What I do I have to do. Noone understands me. not really. But I'll give my mom credit for knowing that much.


You know What? A better place can indeed not be found. When I am lying next to you. Whether you love me or not. I care to much about you. Your considered my friend whethe rI am yours or not. You and Sam can hate me. But i'll be here if you ever really need help.