somethings cant be helped. just like cutting yourself. but when you feel like i do you know that you cant help but cry. every day i ask myself why am i alive when i hurt everybody? i hate myself every day for everything i do to hurt others. my boyfriend worrys about me constantly because he tells me dont say "im fine" and "dont worry". i cry myself to sleep because i know i have done something wrong everyone says its not your fault to me but its my fault that my brother is going to jail it truely is and no one understands that! it is my fault because im the one who got my whole family in this mess and i shouldnt be living now i really shouldnt be here right now so why am i still here? why? thats what i wanna know why? the other day i tryed to overdose purposely and i havewnt told anyone but im seriously sick im trying to get rid of this life everyone just sees a smile on my face and thinks everything is ok but its not truely im always crying because it hurts! everyone calls me a hero but im not! i have hurt so many people just because i felt like it sometimes i sacrifise my own happiness for my friends to be happy i guess thats how i seem like a hero to most bt i had a friend tell me this 12:26:29 [thelightitburns whispers to serene_beauty] you did something i dont have the guts to do and what i want to do but im afraid he will come get me TT thats how im a hero to him how am i a hero you you? pm me and tell me maybe if i do relize that i am a hero then i might want to save more lives so tell me why am i your hero?
love and truth hurt but i hurt the most
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