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I'm never going to assume things about anyone again. Whenever I do assume things about emotions for people, they always turn out to be wrong.. Anyway.. So it's like.. 3:27am. iRo is STILL down for maintence. Fattie Chubby Kittehs you, Gravity. /bawi I miss Mikie, Kat, Stephie, and like.. All of my friends. ,~, Stephie is still in Greece, Kat doesn't have any internet from what I know. I don't know WHERE on earth Mikie has been. And I'm kind of getting the feeling that he's avoiding me. Because whenever I tried to talk to him this morning(before I went to sleep), and this afternoon, he just ignored me entirely. He says he loves me, and I believe him. We're engaged on iRo, but like.. We hardly spend any time together. That's probably what bothers me the most. I'm so used to my relationships being my life. Not just being an addition to them. I've made lots of new friends, and I spend all my time with them. Of course I don't have any friends irl currently from what I know. But I'll be working on it once school starts up. Suddenly I have a good feeling about everything that will happen. Whatever happens, happens. For better or for worst. No matter what life throws at me, I'll make it through it. I haven't given up yet, no matter how much I wanted to. I won't ever give up until I've helped everyone I can, loved with all of my heart, and experienced both the true joys and sorrows of life. I don't know who the person for me is. I suppose that's why I've been pushing off marrying Mikie in iRo. I don't want to do anything either of us will regret. I just want to enjoy it while it lasts. If it lasts for a long time, and we grow closer.. Then we will continue to become closer. I want him to be happy, no matter who it's with. For the first time in my life, it doesn't hurt me to say it. My relationship with Mikie is unlike any one I've ever had. He won't force me into anything, he won't accuse me, he won't do anything to purposely hurt me. We don't spend all of our time joking, nor do we spend it all flirting. We just enjoy our time together. Oh, I suppose I haven't really told anyone, have I? I called him on my cell a couple times. (I just got it recently, it's my mom's old one.) He sounds absolutely adorable! 4laugh heart I could just like.. Spend hours listening to him. Unfortunately, I don't think I'll be able to talk to him again anytime soon. His parrot owned his cell, so.. Yeah.. >>; BAD BIRDIE! I suppose I sound a bit obsessed, don't I? He and I only spend about an hour or so together every day. But I cherish every moment. I wish I could spend more time with him, but it's alright if I can't. I'm not going to die from Mikie withdrawls. Oh, and something weird happened a couple days ago. Tyler imed me on a random account, and asked me if I was talking to Orphans. According to Orphans, Tyler assumes we're together. sweatdrop Honestly, I only think of Orphans as a friend. We don't even talk that often. Basically Tyler then proceeded to make a fool out of himself, then blocked me again. And I'm left here like.. "Wtf.." I've been having a lot of random outbursts lately. Hehe. Like randomly accusing people of amusing things. Two days ago, I was healslaving my friend's 94 hunter in mids 4. And randomly I said like. "DARKIE, I TOLD YOU HITTING ON ISIS WAS A BAD IDEA. XD" And today I was joking around with my one friend, he's surprised that I know certain things about what he's going through better than he does. So I like to tease him about it. And we ran into a bs with the name "Roger the shrubber" today in Hos. And I was like "OMGMONTYPYTHONREFERENCE /slur". Then we got into a whole conversation about Monty Python, and quotes and stuffs. He decided he's going to make a guild named "The Knights of Ni!". I asked him to let my sin join, and he said no. Because she's not a knight. crying Loofah crushed my paper heart. ~Sobsob~ Anyway.. My current characters on iRo Loki:
~*TwilightNocturne*~ : Level 60 CP/WoE dancer, is in Ancient Berserkers. heart (Which I think will fall apart soon, since the only real people left in it are newbs basically. .__. STEPHIE, KAT, ALEX, COME BAAAACK TO US. ~Sobs~ It's a long drawling story. Basically Ava and Tsu had a fight over something as small as where Tsu was sitting. So then Ava left AB, Alex followed her, and so did Millie. Now almost none of the old members are left. The guild chat is almost constantly silent. It's unnatural. And tomorrow is WoE, I don't think I'm going to participate. They have another dancer anyway.. She's a lot higher level than me. ~Sighs~)
StrawberryNocturne: MY NOVIE. 4laugh Eventually she will be an adorable, pink haired huntress.. Eventually.
AmayaLily~: Level 68 fs priestess. She's in Luminare.(A nonWoE/leveling/MvP guild which is run by my friend. It's fun, I'm friends with almost everyone in the guild.)
StrawberryNocturne~ sad Yes, I know she has the same name as my novie. I didn't mean to! ~Sobs~ gonk ) My merchie, she's only level 16 right now. Eventually she'll be a baby homoculus alchie though. Whenever they get out the homoculus skills. Fiiiiiliiiir.. I want a chubbly, blue birdie of my own. 4laugh
SakuraNocturne: My new, remade sin! She's only level 55 though, and currently resides in Luminare as well. I need to get her a mocking muffler still before I can go back to leveling her.(I borrowed Mikie's +5 mocking muffler before.)
heart Mikie, Kat, Stephie, Onii-san, Darkie, Kiro, Loofah, and all of my other friends. I don't know what I'd do without you all.
~Aerie
 TwilightNocturne · Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 08:58am · 1 Comments |
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