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every little thing. Every minuscule detail. all the ones noone probably notices. All the ones I see... I feel...they all band together. All the small things and they enter me through all my open weak points...then the proceed to tear me apart from within. I can't take it anymore. I'm going insane. I'm sad. I'm pissed. I want to ******** scream at the world. But I don't because it wont accomplish anything. Noone really cares. Do I even care? To any extent? I don't ******** know anymore. I need to find my self control my distraction from it all. But I can't, I just can't win... for once... I've lost. Abandon all hope. It's all im getting. I don't want to give up. But the pain tells me to. With each blow dealt I fall, and I stand back up never to walk the same. But I stand none the less. I refuse to give up. Pain after all is temporary is it not? then why has this pain lasted so wrong. they were right. when they gave me advice. When they apologized. when they admitted. I should have listened. but the nice guy never listens. He's to over analytical and tuck up without even realizing it. That my friends is my tragic flaw. Two types of plays. A comedy and a tragedy. definitions prolly not what you think. Right now my life plays out as a tragedy. but its only ACTII scene 2 right? I still have time to change this don't I? Take this pain away...Physical. Emotional. Please. take it away. I can only bare so much....