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Right now my heart is torn into two pieces, on one side there's you && on the other there's another dude.
I don't know what to do, I don't want to choose buht..I know i have to && if I lose one of you, my heart will be bruised. It's like you've been steady driving and he's been taking my heart on a test drive, on a slow && steady cruised.
It breaks my heart to think about giving one of you up, I don't think I could take the pain, if I lose either one, my heart will explode, the depression will drizzle on into a deep undying rain. When I think about one of you, theres so much love && I feel like God's brought me something from above. When I think about the other, I think about all the nights my love for him went under the radar, it went undercover.
I think about how many times I wanted to scream out 'I love you', but the thought of what you might say back made me stop myself, it made me shudder.
The love I have for both of you is like two sticks of hot && melted butter, I'm walking down a treacherous && slippery path, I don;t want to break either ones heart, but i need to figure this out, I'll do the math, I need to be smart.
If I continute like this I don't know what I'll do, I need to to get rid of one of you, because if I don't I risk losing the both of you.
I wish there was some way I could keep both, but I don't know if I can with all this stress, I keep thinking about how I told one of you I'd never cheat, I know how much I care about the last of the two, I've waited so long for you to come to me, I've waited so long for the opporutunity to call you my boo.
I'd do anything for one of you, your my angel, my king, like I said before you helped me up when i had a broken wing, the though of losing you makes my heart skip a beat, it makes me want to cry, it makes my entire body start to sing && you were even talkin bouht buying me a ring,baby, the things I'd do for you, I can't believe, they're completely unforseen. The other one has a tight grasp on my heart, but I've seen my best friend go down this road before, with you it seems like you open && close too many doors, you tell me on thing one minute and another the next && even though were so compatible with each other;; we have the same personality type I'm still vexed cusz as much as we have in common, so does the other person I'm writing about as I write out in this scribbled text. I love the both of you almost equally, but my heart won't let me go on with both of you, it won't let me be free. I have to leave one of you && that'sz the thought that tears me apart, I'm not crying right now buht if I keep thinkin bouht this I just might start, you mine as well just shoot me with an AK47, because that's the same way I'll feel if I lose one of you, my heart will be torn into a million pieces, I'll be worthless && a mess, I'll be awake all night thinking about the decision I'll have made && the way I'll feel is just unfathomable, but I'll have to drag on and live with the choice i've made, I don't know who I'll pick, my heart could swing in either direction, I might choose the first half or I might choose the other section. I have in my heart love for both of you, undeniable affection, but your both running for the same position && only one can win the election.